Been a long time since I have written a post on this blog.
Noticed a few mistakes in the previous posts, but this is in the past. I think maybe, we should forget the past, focus on the present and plan for the future. Noticed many grammar mistakes, I remember that time where I was writing a post and made my mum make sure that there are no grammar mistakes since she is a good English teacher. So I have changed, evolved, improved and grew up a bit from the past, just like everyone. I have done mistakes, so I don't make them again, so I get to experience in life. I still do have many grammar mistakes especially when I type fast or be worried or in those usual situations where my grammar breaks apart. Look I am not sure if this post is going to be long or short, I am just writing my thoughts about me in the past, maybe it would have been much better if I go back in time and talk to the old me face to face. It is neither a good idea nor a possibility. But we all grow up, get more experienced in life to look back to our old-self and see our old flaws and mistakes and get proud of the change we have done. I might not be writing a good post or an interesting post that would make you so interested that it would lead you in reading the whole post in a short time, but if I am making mistakes in writing those blogs, at least I am helping the future me, one day he will look to the present, remembering those mistakes and flaws, just like the present me, is looking at the past me, remembering those mistakes and flaws. I am not of a big blogger or a good writer or experienced but in fact, I barely write. But I am a deep thinker or we can say that I am an overthinker. It is a hobby of me overthinking or thinking deeply on the subject or topic that is stealing the spotlight inside my brain. I think deeply to something, which is why I have so many thoughts to write down. Does that mean that I should make a whole blog about the thoughts I want to write? To write a whole book about those thoughts or the mistakes that I have done in life and how to avoid them? I don't know, I might deeply think about those questions after I publish this post or while I'm writing this post which might make me distracted which MIGHT make me not publish this post at the time I started writing. I don't know, I feel like I am putting a lot of pressure on my readers or making this post complex. After looking at my blog, it might be the longest blog I have ever written. Maybe I should buy a sweet pink diary, but I am not a girl. My friend would mock me so bad that it would actually hurt. And that would be another mistake, I don't know. The thing is, we live in this life to get experience, and then we leave. One of my questions was, why do people love you when you die or when you are about to die? I saw this question being asked in a movie called "Winter's Tale" it is actually a good movie and you should watch it. I am writing this post while I am listening to some songs made by Slim Shady, which is a bit distracting, another mistake! But I don't care, because it is just a small pitty mistake. I am reading a book called "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck" by Mark Manson, it is not totally about not giving a fuck. It tells you what problems you should give a fuck about and what problems you shouldn't. That is why I didn't care about the fact that I am writing this post while I am listening to a song by Slim Shady because it is not a big problem or at least it won't hurt me. It might not even be a problem, it is probably me over-reacting. I am an emotional person or a highly sensitive person, that is why I over-react sometimes or think deeply about a topic. Which occurs in a lot of these teens these days especially female teenagers. I didn't like music that much in the past but now I noticed that I am in love with music. I listen to Eminem, he is the only person who shifts my mood, well not the only person but the only celebrity. Whenever I listen to Eminem, I feel motivated, whenever I listen to Slim Shady I feel angry or tough, whenever I listen to Marshall Mathers I feel emotional. Excuse me I am going to eat because I am too hungry. And I am back, seemed like a second for you right, but it was 5 or 10 minutes for me. I think I am over-writing or over-reacting because there is probably no such thing called over-writing but I will gain experience in writing and I will know what is the essentials of writing a blog or story. As I mentioned in the previous posts in this blog, I want to be a writer as a side-job. So probably blogging will help me with writing so maybe I should stick to it. And the future me who is probably a writer now will look at the mistakes of the present me when I was blogging. Hey future me, you better give me a bright future or I will kill you...I guess. By the way, if you are wondering how my grammar improved so much over those few years it is cause I am using Grammarly. It is quite helpful which will fix my grammar mistakes, I think it is okay to get some things to aid me in avoiding my mistake, right? As long it gives me a positive result by using a positive method then I am pretty sure it is fine. Probably using Grammarly is a mistake, maybe I should let this mistake happen in front of my audiences' eye to mock me or tell me that I have grammar mistakes and that would stop me from making mistakes, or maybe I am just over-reacting. This post is about my mistakes, about my thoughts about my past's mistake. Maybe it is about mistakes in general, but I thought it was about me in the past in general. Or this post is probably about confusion because I am pretty sure you are confused because I feel the same. Complexity is boring depends on the mood, time and the subject or topic that have complexity, it also depends on the level. And I am pretty sure that complexity isn't good on blogs because readers like books or blogs simple. So that is probably another mistake but I will let it go because maybe you might appreciate my mistakes. The problem is that the society these days have high expectations, want perfection and think celebrities are limitless which in fact its wrong. I am going to make it simple for you, this is probably going to be the only thing simple you have ever seen in this post. Let us take or call the fans as babies or kids, celebrities are the toys. They keep playing with these toys, they might break it, or it gets rusted, or they get bored of it so they throw it and then go to another toy. That is how it works in my opinion and I am pretty sure a lot of you will agree AND disagree since the whole world has different experience and values which will lead them to different conclusions and opinions. And I think society should get easy and learn to appreciate the flaws and mistakes like they used to in the past. I will give you two example of two celebrities that got tired of fame and fans. Sebastian Stan is known for his role of Bucky Barnes in the movie sequel called "The Avengers", his fans are taking shots about the length of his hair whenever they notice it. He warned them that if they kept on with that shit, he will stop doing his job. My opinion is that this is just a hair and you guys are being stupid. Look at how the fans are whining over small details, I mean it is not even a flaw. It is just a hair, so not just they don't want to appreciate flaws, but they also taking shots at things that shouldn't even be considered as a flaw. And that is so stupid in my opinion. Now another example I know is Eminem or Slim Shady. He got so tired from the fans that they led him to make a song called "Walk on Water" from the album "Revival" which they kept hating on it and didn't care about his emotions, the album "Revival" got so many hates and didn't go viral. He then made another album in 2018 called "Kamikaze" where he strikes against his fans, mumble rappers and few professional rappers that criticized him for a while. I think when they make Slim Shady angry, he strikes them back and teaches them to respect him again which is something that I like in him. Fame and being a celebrity is a hard thing now. It is easy to be famous but it is hard to satisfy the fans. Back in the past, it was hard to be famous but was easy to satisfy the fans. Not so easy but, the fans would appreciate your flaws and would forgive you for the mistakes. Fans these days will be okay when you make songs for years, but when you make a mistake for a few weeks or months, they hate you for it. I think we can all say that people these days are so soft, including me. Which is something I hate, I always said that I wanted to be born much earlier, something like, 1989 or something like that. Seems like a good year to me. But if I was born in 1989, I wasn't going to be the person I am today, which is something that I don't want. Yeah, this post got so big and probably it wasn't about me in the past, or my past mistakes or humanity mistakes or society mistakes. I think we can all say that this post was about...What is going through my mind?
Noticed a few mistakes in the previous posts, but this is in the past. I think maybe, we should forget the past, focus on the present and plan for the future. Noticed many grammar mistakes, I remember that time where I was writing a post and made my mum make sure that there are no grammar mistakes since she is a good English teacher. So I have changed, evolved, improved and grew up a bit from the past, just like everyone. I have done mistakes, so I don't make them again, so I get to experience in life. I still do have many grammar mistakes especially when I type fast or be worried or in those usual situations where my grammar breaks apart. Look I am not sure if this post is going to be long or short, I am just writing my thoughts about me in the past, maybe it would have been much better if I go back in time and talk to the old me face to face. It is neither a good idea nor a possibility. But we all grow up, get more experienced in life to look back to our old-self and see our old flaws and mistakes and get proud of the change we have done. I might not be writing a good post or an interesting post that would make you so interested that it would lead you in reading the whole post in a short time, but if I am making mistakes in writing those blogs, at least I am helping the future me, one day he will look to the present, remembering those mistakes and flaws, just like the present me, is looking at the past me, remembering those mistakes and flaws. I am not of a big blogger or a good writer or experienced but in fact, I barely write. But I am a deep thinker or we can say that I am an overthinker. It is a hobby of me overthinking or thinking deeply on the subject or topic that is stealing the spotlight inside my brain. I think deeply to something, which is why I have so many thoughts to write down. Does that mean that I should make a whole blog about the thoughts I want to write? To write a whole book about those thoughts or the mistakes that I have done in life and how to avoid them? I don't know, I might deeply think about those questions after I publish this post or while I'm writing this post which might make me distracted which MIGHT make me not publish this post at the time I started writing. I don't know, I feel like I am putting a lot of pressure on my readers or making this post complex. After looking at my blog, it might be the longest blog I have ever written. Maybe I should buy a sweet pink diary, but I am not a girl. My friend would mock me so bad that it would actually hurt. And that would be another mistake, I don't know. The thing is, we live in this life to get experience, and then we leave. One of my questions was, why do people love you when you die or when you are about to die? I saw this question being asked in a movie called "Winter's Tale" it is actually a good movie and you should watch it. I am writing this post while I am listening to some songs made by Slim Shady, which is a bit distracting, another mistake! But I don't care, because it is just a small pitty mistake. I am reading a book called "The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck" by Mark Manson, it is not totally about not giving a fuck. It tells you what problems you should give a fuck about and what problems you shouldn't. That is why I didn't care about the fact that I am writing this post while I am listening to a song by Slim Shady because it is not a big problem or at least it won't hurt me. It might not even be a problem, it is probably me over-reacting. I am an emotional person or a highly sensitive person, that is why I over-react sometimes or think deeply about a topic. Which occurs in a lot of these teens these days especially female teenagers. I didn't like music that much in the past but now I noticed that I am in love with music. I listen to Eminem, he is the only person who shifts my mood, well not the only person but the only celebrity. Whenever I listen to Eminem, I feel motivated, whenever I listen to Slim Shady I feel angry or tough, whenever I listen to Marshall Mathers I feel emotional. Excuse me I am going to eat because I am too hungry. And I am back, seemed like a second for you right, but it was 5 or 10 minutes for me. I think I am over-writing or over-reacting because there is probably no such thing called over-writing but I will gain experience in writing and I will know what is the essentials of writing a blog or story. As I mentioned in the previous posts in this blog, I want to be a writer as a side-job. So probably blogging will help me with writing so maybe I should stick to it. And the future me who is probably a writer now will look at the mistakes of the present me when I was blogging. Hey future me, you better give me a bright future or I will kill you...I guess. By the way, if you are wondering how my grammar improved so much over those few years it is cause I am using Grammarly. It is quite helpful which will fix my grammar mistakes, I think it is okay to get some things to aid me in avoiding my mistake, right? As long it gives me a positive result by using a positive method then I am pretty sure it is fine. Probably using Grammarly is a mistake, maybe I should let this mistake happen in front of my audiences' eye to mock me or tell me that I have grammar mistakes and that would stop me from making mistakes, or maybe I am just over-reacting. This post is about my mistakes, about my thoughts about my past's mistake. Maybe it is about mistakes in general, but I thought it was about me in the past in general. Or this post is probably about confusion because I am pretty sure you are confused because I feel the same. Complexity is boring depends on the mood, time and the subject or topic that have complexity, it also depends on the level. And I am pretty sure that complexity isn't good on blogs because readers like books or blogs simple. So that is probably another mistake but I will let it go because maybe you might appreciate my mistakes. The problem is that the society these days have high expectations, want perfection and think celebrities are limitless which in fact its wrong. I am going to make it simple for you, this is probably going to be the only thing simple you have ever seen in this post. Let us take or call the fans as babies or kids, celebrities are the toys. They keep playing with these toys, they might break it, or it gets rusted, or they get bored of it so they throw it and then go to another toy. That is how it works in my opinion and I am pretty sure a lot of you will agree AND disagree since the whole world has different experience and values which will lead them to different conclusions and opinions. And I think society should get easy and learn to appreciate the flaws and mistakes like they used to in the past. I will give you two example of two celebrities that got tired of fame and fans. Sebastian Stan is known for his role of Bucky Barnes in the movie sequel called "The Avengers", his fans are taking shots about the length of his hair whenever they notice it. He warned them that if they kept on with that shit, he will stop doing his job. My opinion is that this is just a hair and you guys are being stupid. Look at how the fans are whining over small details, I mean it is not even a flaw. It is just a hair, so not just they don't want to appreciate flaws, but they also taking shots at things that shouldn't even be considered as a flaw. And that is so stupid in my opinion. Now another example I know is Eminem or Slim Shady. He got so tired from the fans that they led him to make a song called "Walk on Water" from the album "Revival" which they kept hating on it and didn't care about his emotions, the album "Revival" got so many hates and didn't go viral. He then made another album in 2018 called "Kamikaze" where he strikes against his fans, mumble rappers and few professional rappers that criticized him for a while. I think when they make Slim Shady angry, he strikes them back and teaches them to respect him again which is something that I like in him. Fame and being a celebrity is a hard thing now. It is easy to be famous but it is hard to satisfy the fans. Back in the past, it was hard to be famous but was easy to satisfy the fans. Not so easy but, the fans would appreciate your flaws and would forgive you for the mistakes. Fans these days will be okay when you make songs for years, but when you make a mistake for a few weeks or months, they hate you for it. I think we can all say that people these days are so soft, including me. Which is something I hate, I always said that I wanted to be born much earlier, something like, 1989 or something like that. Seems like a good year to me. But if I was born in 1989, I wasn't going to be the person I am today, which is something that I don't want. Yeah, this post got so big and probably it wasn't about me in the past, or my past mistakes or humanity mistakes or society mistakes. I think we can all say that this post was about...What is going through my mind?
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